Like a demon on your shoulder
spewing nonsense all your life
About who you are, what to do, what you definitely shouldn't say
Fearing judgment to death
Fearing rejection everyday
Wiring your brain to react to all things irrationally
To save you from others
To hide you from the world
To convince you to keep to yourself
To fill your relationships with useless chaos
Having the upper hand on your consciousness
Telling you you're sick, no one wants you
Like an angel
Introducing myself? Yikes. That's awkward.
I'm not sure I know how...Okay...let me see...where do I start exactly?
All my life I've been very reserved, only really truly expressing my emotions and feelings fully to myself, where I knew no judgement would ever be made. Growing up I kept to myself mostly because I was so afraid of judgment and ridicule. At school, I was invaded with anxiety at the thought of another oral presentation to be had in front of the class an